There have been several changes in his life right now and any one of these can be the impetus for a bad couple of days. But even then, I don't think they're enough to set him back to this extent. I'm struggling as to why he's reverting back to his some of his old behaviors. I know he's self stimming and I know he's trying to self calm and regulate but I don't understand why its happening now, with such intensity.
He's been complaining of his stomach hurting on school mornings and at first I subscribed it to the fact that I freaked out when the kids started puking at school. I harped on him about washing his hands and I thought he just picked up on my anxiety.
Then he started chewing on his shirts again. I about died when he came home with his shirt chewed through.
Now he's making gasping noises, coughing and clearing his throat. A lot. Like, all the time.
He's been spitting, not on people, but blowing raspberries any time he disagrees with someone. Kinda like a F-you, Alex style.
He's been getting upset at the drop of a hat and he stomps around the house and he's started hitting himself.
He's chewing and pulling on his bottom lip and flicking people if they get too close. He's even gone back to standing at the table as he can't, just can't, seem to sit still.
I've been in contact with his teachers at school and they've noticed his behaviors as well. I'm fortunate that this year I have a teacher who truly understands Alex and gets that he's a beautiful little boy.
But I'm still left with that lingering feeling that somethings not right and all these things combined has me worried. I don't know what is going on and I don't know what he's going through. It is time like these that I would give anything, yes anything, to get into his mind and sort out all the worry and angst. To calm him, settle his mind, make things right.
I hate this feeling, the utter helplessness of being Alex's mom.
|I love you to bits little man...|